Hold your breath.

I just don't know what to do with my life. I can't decide what i want to do as a career. Usually I have some idea, but i don't now. I don't want to be in school anymore, and I can't stand not having something to look forward to. The only thing that I want to do right now is be with Andy. I don't want to get up early in the morning, or deal with work or anything. i'm just tired of it. I always feel like I'm trying so hard for something, but I'll never get there. -sigh- Hopefully I'll figure something out. In time I guess. Does everyone go through this problem? I would imagine so, but how does one get out of it. gooddd. Well, I'll just look on the bright side. Things could be alot worse, and I'm glad that I have alot of options. I just need a push in the direction that I would be happiest in.

I finally made a myspace.
-sigh-
add me.
www.myspace.com/whatasoftie

Andy accused me of cheating on him. He called me up on the phone yelling at me, fucking saying that I was no worth his time, and how he was surprised he could have ever loved me. when I finally calmed him down, I got the whole story out of him. Turns out a girl that I used to be friends with told him that I had been lying to him about where I have been for about a month and a half, that I have been with someone else. IM PISSED. After all I have done for him, and all that we have been through, he would have believed some skank instead of talking with me. But he's a guy. so i shouldn't be too surprised. We talked all night, and everything is alright i guess, but there is still tension. I think that in his heart he still believes that something might have happened. Ugh. Stress. Pain. Disappointment. Life.
fuck.

Have I mentioned that 4wheelers are amazing. Im in the country right now and we went out in the woods and were driving around, and since its been raining its all slippery and muddy, and it was WONDERFUL. I haven't had that much fun since I played lazer tag at Fun Land.

i sound like a little kid.
haha.

life is fun.

This morning I went to the pet shop and got a new little baby.
She's addicted to oranges and its the cutest thing ever to watch her eat. When my boyfriend Andy saw her, he about peed. So I guess that he wants partial custody. haha.
Say hello to Daisey. <3